The sun will always set and there will always be a new day.

I love sunsets, more so than sunrise. Maybe because sunsets represent a day well lived where we have tried our best in this world to do what is right, to follow our life mission and to be thankful that God had kept us safe to see another day.

Yesterday I had a bad day. Nothing really happened to make me that way but I was just depressed and down on life. So I cried, I prayed and I tried to put one foot in front of the other to get something done. I didn't do all that was on my "list". It was a day off training so my husband and I gave some time to the puppy and took her to the dog park to play. And this decision allowed me to see a beautiful sunset and to take a moment to reflect just how wonderful my life really is. I have my health, a wonderful husband and stepson, a great puppy dog, a brother and mother that love me unconditionally, a roof over my head, food on the table and much much more. I might not ever be exactly where I think I should be as an athlete, as a wife, as a mother, in my career but I am moving forward to where I need to be spiritually and I have so much to be thankful for. I am not hungry, cold, sick, alone.

I realize that it is ok to have bad days, to scream and fight life, to be disappointed in yourself, to be disappointed in others and not always ride high. But I have also realized that when you fall down, just get right back up and brush the dirt off your shoulders. Others are counting on us. Don't look back but look forward because the sun will set and it will rise again with endless possibilities, great achievements and many many more of God's gifts (and his sunsets).

We only get what we give!

Wake up kids
We've got the dreamers disease
Age fourteen
They got you down on your knees
So polite
We're busy still saying please
Frienemies
Who when you're down ain't your friend
Every night
We smash their mercedes benz
First we run
And then we laugh 'till we cry
But when the night is falling
And you cannot find the light
you feel your dreams are dying
Hold tight
You've got the music in you
Don't let go
You've got the music in you
One dance left
This world is gonna pull through
Don't give up
You've got a reason to live
Can't forget we only get what we give
[I'm comin' home baby]
[You're tops, give it to me now]
Four a.m. we ran a miracle mile
We're flat broke
But hey we do it in style
The bad rich
God's flying in for your trial
But when the night is falling
And you cannot find a friend
You feel your tree is breaking
Just bend
You've got the music in you
Don't let go
You've got the music in you
One dance left
This world is gonna pull through
Don't give up
You've got a reason to live
Can't forget
We only get what we give
This whole damn world can fall apart
You'll be ok follow your heart
You're in harms way I'm right behind
Now say you're mine
You've got the music in you
Don't let go
You've got the music in you
One dance left
This world is gonna pull through
Don't give up
You've got a reason to live
Can't forget
We only get what we give
Don't let go
I feel the music in you
Fly high
What's real can't die
We only get what we give
You're gonna get what you give
Just dont be afraid to live
Health insurance rip off lying FDA big bankers buying
Fake computer crashes dining
Cloning while they're multiplying
Fashion shoots with Beck and Hanson
courtney love and marilyn manson
You're all fakes
Run to your mansions
Come around
We'll kick your ass in

song by New Radicals - You get what you give

a little bit of this...a little bit of that...

I have either the blessing or curse to have two homes. One in Greece and one in the USA. This makes life more complex than one would think. For the last 5 or so years, I have been pulled between the two and this has caused a great unrest for my soul. Just when I start to settle, I change again. This time three weeks ago (and just when things were riding high) I had to leave Greece due the death of my aunt.

I have a small family. It was just the four of us growing up: Dad, Mom, Michael, and me. My father passed away in 2001, an event that would be one of the most difficult to deal with even as I write this over 8 years later. I am still dealing with it especially during those times that I look for his advice and his blessings. So when my aunt passed away three weeks ago, I had to be there not only to help with the arrangements (we are her only family) but for emotional support. This was my fathers sister and the last direct living relative that we had. She was also my Godmother.

Even though it is hard, I always look at death as a celebration of life! Death is only hard for us remaining here on earth. This hit me when we had to organize and donate my aunts last possessions. We are on this planet for a short time and all the worldly possessions will not go with us therefore life is how we live and not what we have. It is just our soul that leaves this world. So, it is our soul that we must perfect (and no amount of money or worldly possessions will help with this journey).

So, as I try to get back on track and keep my focus on work, triathlon, and family, I am even more driven. My goals are aligned to what will best serve my soul. I am ready to push my mind, body and spirit farther than I thought possible. Training: bring it on! Life: bring it on! I am ready for the test of life because with out being tested, we can not realize how great we really are.